Alyssa.

If I was a guy, I would definitely rather have all the love in the world from one girl rather than one night from some hoe. I would rather have all my love in one person, giving them my all instead of spreading “my love” through out some hoes, wearing myself down. I don’t get it. I truly just don’ understand how men or boys think. Two things can happen, you change your game or your game with me stops here. Make your choice and then kindly let me know. 

People really can’t complain about my dirty mouth .. Everyone I talk to and everywhere I go, all I hear is profanity. 

Sorta Continued from the last post:

I’m getting back on my grind. Being a responsible adult, making money, staying out of trouble, and everything positive is on my mind. I don’t drink, party, or get all drugged up so those are the least of my worries. Change is good, it’s needed and that’s what I’m going to get.

Yes, I’ve screwed up A LOT in the past couple months but in all reality, it could be a lot worse. I could be locked up, pregnant, or an underage prostitute. It could all be a lot worse. But as it is, it’s pretty bad. I’ve burned just about every bridge that was built. I’ve bitten almost every hand that’s fed me. I’ve broken promises that I’d never imagine of breaking. I developed trust issues with the people that I truly should trust the most. I’ve become someone that I don’t know nor that I like. The people that have done the most for me, I’ve done the worst of damage to them. I can’t imagine how hard it must be being in their shoes. Where I’m at and what I’ve done, I feel like I deserve this. I wish I could go back a few months and change everything. I wish I would of spoken up when I needed help and I wish I would of been honest when all the questions were asked. Yes, I’ve made a lot of mistakes but when you stop and think about it, I didn’t kill anybody, I’m not a felon and I haven’t raped anybody(not that I ever would). i wanted to say I’m sorry to everyone who I’ve hurt in the past couple of months. I doubt you deserved it. It’s been a really hard time for me. I just wanted to take the time to write this because it was brought to my attention how negative all my posts on tumblr were. And THAT is only because the only time I ever got on tumblr was when I was mad and needed to rant, haha. I know people are going to read this and think, “oh she doesn’t mean that blah blah blah” ; BULLSH*T. You don’t know what I mean and what I don’t. So, there. Everyone who reads this and I know people do; enjoy.